FIRSTS...if you can remember...

1. Who was your FIRST prom date? Ian Schwerdt (i think)

2. Do you still talk to your FIRST love? seeing as we're dating right now yes

3. What was your FIRST driving experience like? it was so cool! My aunt took me in her stick shift Nissan to the nearest church parking lot. Coolest Aunt ever! and my parents didn't find out till a few months later

4. What was your FIRST job? Carhop at Sonic

5. What was your FIRST car? Silver Volvo 740 Turbo

6. Who was the FIRST person to text you today? my Dad

7. Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning? My Baby Jayden

8. Who was your FIRST grade teacher? Mrs Morgan

9. Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane? Mexico

10. Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk? Jenny Snively and I see her on occasion

11. Where was your FIRST sleepover?? oh geeez you expect me to remember? probably at a cousin's house?

12. Who was the FIRST person you talked to today? my son Jayden

13. Whose wedding were you in the FIRST time? haven't been in one yet...

14. What was the first thing you did this morning? wake up....

15. What was the FIRST concert you ever went to? Switchfoot at park city in the 90 below weather with Brent! good times!

16. FIRST tattoo? got it last year...

17. FIRST piercing? when I was only a couple days old I got my ears pierced

18. FIRST foreign country you've been to? Mexico

19. FIRST movie you remember seeing? Lion King, over and over and over and over again

20. When was your FIRST detention? hahahaha 4th grade? we were learning what it meant to use your middle finger.... never listen to boys!

21. What was the FIRST state you lived in? California

22. Who was your FIRST roommate? The Shepherd Family

23. FIRST funeral you attended? Great Grandma Payne

24. Who was your FIRST kiss with? Rafael Alneida

25. What's the FIRST thing you do when getting on the computer? check email and log into messenger.

Oh how I LOVE tags!

Here are the rules:

1. Go to your documents/pictures.

2. Go to your 6th file.

3. Go to your 6th picture.

4. Blog about it.

5. Tag 6 people to do the same.





OH. MY.LANTA!!!

I can't even tell you how much I love this lil guy! No matter what the object may be if it's shiny he thinks he's getting his picture taken. I love it! He poses, smiles, does fun faces and the whole shabang!

He just turned 8 months an dis trying his hardest to learn to crawl. He has the whole teeth coming through his poor red gums. His favorite thing to eat is star puffs. (puffed wheat with fruit) His favorite colors (or ones he picks out of the toy box the most) are: orange, yellow and red. He is fascinated by him Grandpa and makes sure he screams at the top of his lungs every time he gets carried into the shop. It's the cutest thing in the world!

I could probably go on and on about my lil dude... he is my life, my light, and my love :)

Gotta love those red cup nights!

So this last weekend was a blast! got to meet some crazy fun peeps and just enjoy a good night of dancing! Here are a few pics from our lovely night!

Macho Man Spencey Pants

Ellie and J.D. with lovely bunny ears :)

Left to right: Spencer, Ellie, Me
Yes Ellie was red cuppin it! but weren't we all!

Left to right: Stephen, Me, David
We took about ten pictures before one turned out that was decent.

oh the joy of having GREAT PEOPLE in your life....

So I keep thinking where would I be without certain people who are in my life currently. I would be in a whole different state, mindset, emotion, and just plain different person all together!

I am so grateful for the people who have helped me become who I am today. Obviously my Parents have played a HUGE roll in creating this person I call me. I am so happy to have such great parents who really do sincerely care about my well being and my future as a person in this difficult world.

Jayden has been more than a blessing in my life, he has been my...hmmm. well... my EVERYTHING! He has shown me the real meaning of love, the amazing feeling of being mother, and has kept me grounded right at the perfect times. I have never been good at giving myself the ultimatum in certain parts of my life but he has single handedly given me the strength to do so. He has taught me so much about life and about how much a single person can have such a huge impact on another person's life.

Another person who has really made me "see the light" is a great man I am lucky enough to call my boyfriend. He has been nothing but good to me. He has proven to me that there really are decent men left in this world. He has shown me how simple life can be and how some things are worth it just cause they are. Even though most of the time we are 600 miles away he makes me feel like he is right next to me all day long. He can put a smile on my face after a tough day. He makes me feel like no matter what I do I am worth being there for. I just hope I can do the same. I am excited to see where this all goes.

There are plenty of people I could mention both in good and bad situations throughout my life that have made me think about things to come and have made me choose for the better. This blog couldn't contain the long list and descriptions of those people. I am so glad to be alive and have the wonderful life I do. I couldn't ask for more or anything different. This is where I am supposed to be and who I'm supposed to be with.

So THANKS to those who have contributed to the creation that is Brenda.

The indecisive fears of a relationship

There is a song called "The fear you won't fall" by Josh Radin. It pretty much talks about the fears of falling in love.. and how scary it is because you never know if the other person will fall back. Well I was recently listening to that song and wondering about all the other items that are to be feared in the beginnings of a relationship that may not be addressed. Things such as when it's "ok" to say I love you, meeting to the parents of your significant other for the first time, when it's "expected" to give a present for holidays and special occasions, and many more things that are so completely not discussed between the couple most of the time.

So... I just thought I'd make a list of the things that I feel are personally not discussed enough but aren't a deal breaker either...well most the time. So here they are (in no particular order):

• When it's ok to kiss
  
• When do you say "I Love You"
• Moving in together
• Meeting each others parents
• When to bring up living arrangements
• When to talk about kids
• How many times should you go out
  
• Who drives, who pays
• When is it ok for the woman to pay for things
  
• If distance is involved who moves closer to whom or is it a mutual thing
• What holidays are spent with family
• If kids are involved when should they be introduced
• How often should you hang out and where
• What is unacceptable as far as etiquette

Those are just a few of the many items that intrigue me personally....who knows what types of relationships this falls under. Everyone is different but I think the issues stay the same, for the most part.

hmmmmmmmm...

BLAH!!!!


that is all....